Story Of The Week

I don't have much to say actually. On Monday, I hung out with my girls. Wednesday, went out with my Baby. Thursday, I went out with Dice to get ourselves a haircut. Today, I hung out with Dave and Raymond at Chill. So, basically, everything occured in Gadong.
Here are some pictures.

Out with me and my girlies :)

Dice was so kusut when he had his haircut. He even managed to pose. :P

This is Dave and Raymond (Y)

DAVEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :D

Why is it so complicated?

I don't know how to start actually. It's late, obviously. Somehow, I still can't figure out why these eyes won't shut. I haven't been sleeping well for days. Insomnia? Probably. I hope not. I'm currently chatting with my baby. (L) EEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I love you so much wah yo! Hahaha. Like I said, baby. "Let me lie down on your chest and listen to your heart beating as you hold me in your arms and make me feel safe." :)
Anyway, I went out with my girls days ago which was on Monday. We never thought we'd ever hang out on a Monday. We usually go out on Thursday Nights and Saturday Nights. Sadly, I can't spend time with them on Thursdays' and Saturdays' because I'm working during those days. Bummer, huh? Oh well, what can I do about it? Responsibilities comes first. Mmmmyeah.
I've been feeling really crappy all day today. I don't know why. I was so blank...... completely. It's weird. It's like a mind tease as well. Ahh.. I cried last night. Until I lost my contact lens. Kirakan ganas jua sudah tu ku menangis aah. So yeah. Mum bought me a new pair. The sales assistant said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry to say you have estigmatism. But the toric contact lens you need for the right side of your eye is currently unavailable. I will give you the normal contact lens, but it will not be as clear as wearing eyeglasses." So yeah, I was like.. "Um.. Really? How much has my degree increased?" And she said, "for your right eye, from -2.50 to -4.00 and for your left, from -2.75 to -3.25." And I was like, "Whoa!" Hahah. Yes, mummy. I'll start eating my carrots. I don't like carrots, actually. It has that bizzare taste. Well, for me. I don't know about you guys. I love eating Caesar salad and other green vegetables(including the purple coloured ones), but not carrots.
Right now, I'm listening to Until the end of time by Justin timberlake and Beyonce'. Hmm.. I miss my baby so much. No no.. I will not cry again. I don't want want another pair of contact lens to go missing again.
Anyway, I'm thinking of making a new email. My current email is getting lame. And a lot of people complain that it's too long. Letmebeyoureffingballerina@hotmail.com? Does that seem long to you? Oh well, no need to answer that. Hahah.
Oh well, I'm blank now. Will update more soon. Gidday, Mate! :)

A little something from me to you

I just want you to know that I love only you, baby. Just you. And it's so true. I am totally in love with you. :')

Busybusybusy

So far, I've been caught up with work lately. That's one of the very good reason why I haven't been blogging. I've been so busy, I got caugt up with a lot of things. Anyway, I'm not working today. So yeah. I got some free time for blogging. I'm currently working at Chill which is located at The Mall, Gadong. I'm working as a part-time waitress. Hey, it's better working than doing nothing during the holidays. And plus, I need the extra pocket money. I can't keep on depending on my mother's money. Not only that, I want to learn how to earn money by myself. At least I'm commited to it. If not, I'd be a spoiled brat by now. No offense, my intention is not to offend anyone in particular. I'm just saying it on my own behalf.
Currently, I'm missing someone. We just had our 3rd Monthsary yesterday. It was fabulous. I never had an amazing Monthsary before. Oh, baby. I thank you so much for such an amazing day. It means so much to me. I love you so much, Ass :') That was the first romantic outing ever. If only you could've focused a lot on me than football. pfft. Oh well, at least we had fun. Mmm... I'll treasure that moment in me forever, baby. I love you so much. So so very much :')
Right this very minute, I'm kind of thinking. What am I gonna do tomorrow? I have absolutely no plans nor even anything to do at all. Hmm.. I think I should just rest at home since I'll be woring the very next day. I'm only woring four times a week, which is Thursdays' till Sundays'. It's a tough job. Especially on weekends. There's always a crowd. You have no idea. It does seem like a simple and boring job, but hey, I don't mind woring six hours a day. It's worth it :)

Badminton.

I was looking through Abi's blog. And I found one of my picture during the badminton tournament which was held at PTEB last april. I looked horrible. Didn't know he took a shot of it. So anyway, I took the picture. Sorry, Abi. I forgot to link you. hahah.

Hello, Earthlings.

As you all heard, well, some of you. hahah. I've recovered from an emotional breakdown. I haven't fully recovered though. Little by little. It's nearly 1:30 am. I can't sleep. I've been feeling so fucked up lately. Hmm.. I kinda miss school and that tall, sexy ninja that used to stalk me around. Mmm... I miss you :/ So yeah, I'm bored and took pictures of myself. Wanna take a look? Here you go.

So yeahh, that's Nani in boredom mode. Hahaha. Recently, I chatted with my best buddy, Dice. He's an awesome friend. He's changed so much. In a good way. We chatted this one night. And, he managed to make me laugh. I was really upset at that time. Luckily he was there to make me feel better. Otherwise, who knows what might happen. I was really stressed out. Anyway, he knew I'd blog about this so he said, "Hello, Earthlings. "

Oh, guess what? I've managed to get a part time job. I can't tell you where. But for those who's faces are always seen in Gadong, you'll figure out where I'm working. And if you do know, just keep it low. Hahah. I'm gonna start working this Thursday. Aaaah. Can't wait for my first day. This is the newest beginning of another new experience. (Y)

I'm kinda missing someone right now. I bet you know who you are. Sayang, I'm sorry for what I said earlier. I was so stupid. I've always been stupid. Mmm, I love you so much! And I'm really really sorry. :/ Nani misses you, ya'know?

A dedication to the bored and jobless.

I'm so bored like hell. I'm currently cahtting with my baby. It goes a little something like this:

Ass. just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Ass. says (6:07 PM):
behh
Ass. says (6:07 PM):

:)
Nani says (6:07 PM):
apakan nudge nudge ani?
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
i Love you man.
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
haha
Nani says (6:07 PM):
i love you too wah dude.

hahah. Well, that's my baby. I love my baby to teenyweeny bits.

Anyway, I had an all-boring day today. Been missing my baby. Ahh.. And I miss my baby girls. Nabilah Rosli, Piyawan Takamchai and Nabilah Hazirah Karim. I know I know. I've alredy met them last night. Piya, Zye and I watched The Coffin. It was awesome! It could've been better if nabs was with us as well. But oh well, at least we had fun. It's not Nabs's fault she had to go home early.

My mind is so messed up right now. For I don't know what reason. I mean, exam's over. What more should I be thinking about? Hmm.. Maybe it's because I miss my baby too much.

I did this little discovery. I'm really into all sorts of reptiles. It all started when I disected a lizard when I was 5 years old. I'm not a criminal or a weirdo, okay? I was just amazed when I saw its tail was still moving eventhough it was disconnected to the other remainings of its tail. So, it made me thought. Why not cut its body to half. And I did. I remembered I saw somethinhg white-ish looking in it. I think it was an egg. Oh well. Anyway, I have this huge interest in snakes, lizards, dinosaurs etc. My favourite reptile is the Komodo Dragon. So far, I can't get enough of that thing. I know its deadly and everything. But I'd like to have the opportunity to study that deadly creature someday. The Komodo dragon (Varanus komodoensis) is a species of lizard that inhabits the islands of Komodo, Rincaa, Floress, Gili Motang , and Gili Dasami, in central Indonesia. A member of the monitor lizard family (Varanidae), it is the largest living species of lizard, growing to an average length of 2 to 3 metres (6.6 to 9.8 ft) and weighing around 70 kilograms (150 lb). Their unusual size is attributed to island gigantism, since there are no other carnivorous animals to fill the niche on the islands where they live, and also to the Komodo dragon's low metabolic rate. As a result of their size, these lizards are apex predators, dominating the ecosystems in which they live. Although Komodo dragons eat mostly carrion, they will also hunt and ambush prey including invertebrates, birds, and mammals.

It's quite a rare species. You don't find it very often. The Komodo dragon started with the Varanus genus, which originated in Asia about 40 million years ago and migrated to Australia. Around 15 million years ago, a collision between Australia and Southeast Asia allowed the varanids to move into what is now the Indonesian archipelago. The Komodo dragon is believed to have differentiated from its Australian ancestors 4 million years ago, extending their range to as far east as the island of Timor. The ice age and its dramatic sea level changes brought the islands that the Komodo dragons inhabited into their present locations, isolating them in their present range.

The Komodo dragon does not have a particularly acute sense of hearing, despite its visible earholes, and is only able to hear sounds between 400 and 2000 hertz. It is able to see as far away as 300 metres which is about 980ft. , but because its retinas only contain cones, it is thought to have poor night vision. The Komodo dragon is able to see in color, but has poor visual discrimination of stationary objects. The Komodo dragon uses its tongue to detect taste and smell stimuli, as with many other reptiles, with the vomeronasal sense using a Jacobson's organ, a sense that aids navigation in the dark. With the help of a favorable wind and its habit of swinging its head from side to side as it walks, Komodo dragons may be able to detect carrion from 4–9.5 kilometres (2.5–6 mi) away. The dragon's nostrils are not of great use for smelling, as the animal does not have a diaphragm. It only has a few taste buds in the back of its throat. Its scales, some of which are reinforced with bone, have sensory plaques connected to nerves that facilitate its sense of touch. The scales around the ears, lips, chin, and soles of the feet may have three or more sensory plaques. The Komodo dragon was formerly thought to be deaf when a study reported no agitation in wild Komodo dragons in response to whispers, raised voices, or shouts.

The Komodo dragon prefers hot and dry places, and typically lives in dry open grassland, savanna, and tropical forest at low elevations. As an ectotherm, it is most active in the day, although it exhibits some nocturnal activity. Komodo dragons are largely solitary, coming together only to breed and eat. They are capable of running rapidly in brief sprints up to 20 kilometres per hour (12.4 mph), diving up to 4.5 metres (15 ft), and climbing trees proficiently when young through use of their strong claws. To catch prey that is out of reach, the Komodo dragon may stand on its hind legs and use its tail as a support. As the Komodo dragon matures, its claws are used primarily as weapons, as its great size makes climbing impractical.

For shelter, the Komodo dragon digs holes that can measure from 1–3 metres (3–10 ft) wide with its powerful forelimbs and claws. Because of its large size and habit of sleeping in these burrows, it is able to conserve body heat throughout the night and minimize its basking period the morning after. The Komodo dragon typically hunts in the afternoon, but stays in the shade during the hottest part of the day. These special resting places, usually located on ridges with a cool sea breeze, are marked with droppings and are cleared of vegetation. They also serve as a strategic location from which to ambush deer.

Komodo dragons are carnivores. Although they eat mostly carrion, they will also ambush live prey with a stealthy approach. When suitable prey arrives near a dragon's ambush site, it will suddenly charge at the animal and go for the underside or the throat. It is able to locate its prey using its keen sense of smell, which can locate a dead or dying animal from a range of up to 9.5 kilometers (6 miles). Komodo dragons have also been observed knocking down large pigs and deer with their strong tail.

Komodo dragons eat by tearing large chunks of flesh and swallowing them whole while holding the carcass down with their forelegs. For smaller prey up to the size of a goat, their loosely articulated jaws, flexible skull, and expandable stomach allow it to swallow its prey whole. The vegetable contents of the stomach and intestines are typically avoided. Copious amounts of red saliva that the Komodo dragons produce helps to lubricate the food, but swallowing is still a long process (15–20 minutes to swallow a goat). Komodo dragons may attempt to speed up the process by ramming the carcass against a tree to force it down its throat, sometimes ramming so forcefully that the tree is knocked down. To prevent itself from suffocating while swallowing, it breathes using a small tube under the tongue that connects to the lungs. After eating up to 80 percent of its body weight in one meal, it drags itself to a sunny location to speed digestion, as the food could rot and poison the dragon if left undigested for too long. Because of their slow metabolism, large dragons can survive on as little as 12 meals a year. After digestion, the Komodo dragon regurgitates a mass of horns, hair, and teeth known as the gastric pellet, which is covered in malodorous mucus. After regurgitating the gastric pellet, it rubs its face in the dirt or on bushes to get rid of the mucus, suggesting that it, like humans, does not relish the scent of its own excretions.

The largest animals generally eat first, while the smaller ones follow a hierarchy. The largest male asserts his dominance and the smaller males show their submission by use of body language and rumbling hisses. Dragons of equal size may resort to "wrestling." Losers usually retreat, though have been known to be killed and eaten by victors.

Komodo dragons also possess virulent bacteria in their saliva, of which more than 28 Gram-negative and 29 Gram-positive strains have been isolated. These bacteria cause septicemia in their victim; if an initial bite does not kill the prey animal and it escapes, it will commonly succumb within a week to the resulting infection. The most harmful bacterium in Komodo dragon saliva appears to be a deadly strain of Pasteurella multocida, from studies performed with lab mice. There is no specific antidote to the bite of a Komodo dragon, but it can usually be treated by cleansing the wounded area and giving the patient large doses of antibiotics. If not treated promptly, gangrene can quickly develop around the bite, which may require amputation of the affected area. Because the Komodo dragon appears immune to its own microbes, much research has been done searching for the antibacterial molecule(s) in the hopes of human medicinal use.

Oh well, that's all the facts I can collect about this deadly species.

Here are some pictures if you are not familiar with this reptile:

Girls Day Out.

I went out with my girls today. Can't say much. I'm too sleepy. Oh well. Here's a picture of my girls. I'm not in it cause I'm the one taking the photo. Very unfortunate of me, huh? Oh well, I love my girls.

Nani 2007, I miss.

A few pictures of me back then in year 2007.

Last year's photos of me. I miss the old days. :'/

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I am a complete significance of all insignificance. The perfection of imperfection. I'm being random actually. I'm hurt. And, all I could do is type down everything that is at the tip of my mind right now. I haven't been myself in a while. I haven't fully recovered after my Father's departure. He's never coming back :'(
My life has been nothing but miserable. Eversince my dad's gone, there's been a lot going on. I feel so pressured. I'm my mom's only hope. What more should I say about my brothers? They're hopeless, unreliable, selfish, irresponsible and spoiled. And because of that, my mom keeps encouraging me to be the very best for the family. I just don't want her to put her hopes on me too much. Don't get me wrong. I am willing to do all that. But I need more time. And that's not the only problem. My Father's siblings are fighting over the inheritance. My mom bought two lands in Tanah Jambu and Sengkurong for our future use. But it's unfair to my mom. She purchased those lands with her own money. She only included my dad's name as a sign of how much she loves him. And what's really unfair, they get 1/6 of the land's share and my mom only gets 1/8. It's unfair. It's my mom's property. Shouldn't they be ashamed of fighting over something that doesn't even belong to them. And they're even starting to nag my mom to sell our car to them. Ughh. I'm trying as hard as I can to be strong and hold on. Each day, I have to face all these predicaments. What better life should I be in?
Honestly, I admit. I fake a smile everyday. I'm a very sensitive person. But people don't know that cause I've always been mean and sarcastic. I have main reasons for being insensitive. So that people won't see me as someone who can get hurt easily. Not only that, I'm doing it to protect my feelings. I know, we all have limits. I'm an odd person. *sighss.
My life isn't all that perfect. I would consider my life perfect when I've fulfilled all my purposes in life. Oh, God. I guess this is the karma I get for being such an ass back then. This is the perfect punishment for me. I'm so close to giving up.
Sayang, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I love you. And in this sort of situation, you'll always be the person I need to talk to, to dry my tears away, to convince me that everything's gonna be alright. I love you, I truly do. :'/

I don't wanna lose you

I dedicate this song to you, baby. You know who you are. I love you :')

Stress kills

It's late, I'm supposed to be asleep by now. I'm kinda waiting for something. But I'd rather not mention it here. I had quite a day. ...Hmm.. Actually, No. Have you ever encountered that feeling of losing something or someone each day? If you do, quickly tell me what to do. So yeah, I made a new friend. His name is Ashraf Ahmad. Quite a nice guy. Quite a charmer. He's coming 26 years old and works at private foreign company. Well, that's what he told me. And he plays softball. That's nice. Anyway, I had my English Paper 2 and Maths Paper 2 this morning. It was alright. I came late to school and started the Maths test late. But thankfully, I managed to finish the paper on time. And again, something keeps bothering me. Tomorrow I'm gonna have both Combined Science Paper 1 and Paper 2.
All of a sudden I lost my mood in blogging. I miss that particular someone who isn't talking to me right now. :'(
Will update soon. Goodnight.

Exam Fever

Currently, I'm still in the middle of havin my exam. I have exactly six papers to go, then I'm free. Plus, I haven't gone out with my baby and my girls in a while. :/ Anyway, so yeah. As you all have noticed, I haven't been blogging much since last month. I'm blogging cause I'm bored and I can't sleep. Yesterday, I had my Art exam. Art Paper 1 and Paper 4. Paper 1 is still life drawing and observation. Paper 4 is based on imagination. I did a bit well in paper 1. I tried not to make it look so crappy. I started at 7:30 am and finished it around 9:45 am. All we had to draw was a banana, an apple, an orange, a flower and a piece of cloth. It was okay. We didn't have enough time to go for break so we just continued with paper 4. I drew a landslide. It took me approximately 15 minutes to finish drawing. I just used the abstract drawing method. While I was painting, I started thinking about my baby. I miss Ass. :( I got so moody I felt like leaving the class. Plus, it doesn't seem right. We're not supposed to do both Art papers on the same day. We can't get both inspiration within the day. It was like artistic suicide. So, in the end, my art looked crappy instead. I just don't like doing Art when I'm not in the mood. Instead, I prefer to study my pain away. I find studying quite effective when it comes to relaxing. Aaah. I miss Ass. Ass is probably asleep by now. I'm bored and I got noone to chat to. Which reminds me.. I have D Maths Paper 2 and English Paper 2 exam on Monday. I'm not that anxious. Maths and English are the easiest subjects. And then the next day, which is Tuesday, I'm going to have my Combined Science Paper 1 and 2. To me, Science subjects are also quite easy. I'm just not very fond of POA. It's one of the subjects I'm weak at. I hate it. Sadly, I have to do the Paper anyway which is on Wednesday.
Aahhh. I can't wait till its 4:21am. That's the exact time Ass proposed me when we first got together. It's our 11th Weeksary. :') Baby, Te Quiero Con Toda Mi Alma.
Oh well, I'm off. I have other things to update. Will update soon. Much much love. xoxo