Monday; a special day.

Right now, I'm in bed. Kinda missin' that someone right now. hmm, overall I had a wonderful day today. Except for the part where I nearly fell asleep during Commerce class. Oh come on!, 5 periods of POA and commerce of the same teacher is damn tiring! POA came in first, so, I scored full marks! Yay me. Commerce was last period, and, I was so tired at that time. Nyehh. I barely answered any of the questions cause my brain was functioning so slowly. But things got better when I saw Ass around school. My heart melted almost completely. Grr.. Hmm.. So yeah, I chatted with Umi K earlier. hahaha. We had a funny webcam session. She really cracks me up. Here's a picture of us.



Hahahahah. It was so hilarious. Like, first, it was that, then all of a sudden she's in UK, then in an aeroplane, then just that.
Facts about Umi K:
She's awesomely amazing. We've just known each other for days and we treat each other like as if we've known each other for ages. That just shows how friendly she is. She likes to be out with friends for fun and laughs. Isn't that cute? She's all that when it comes to having fun. She makes an awesome friend. :) I'm lucky to have a kawan like her. Umi K, if you're reading this, I DEMICIATE having a friend like you. Hahahahha. :P

I'm about to describe the type of person I was last year. Mmm.. I'm just gonna copy paste it through an old friendster account of mine. :)

"Here's a self-introduction. I'm mostly known as Nani. The girl noone has actually had the guts to approach to. Silly human beings. Just because I don't give out a smile very often, doesn't mean I'll bite you. I would probably rip your head off if you have the urge to ruin my life. I'm 16 going on 17. I'm no longer a girl. I'm a woman. And please don't sing Britney's "i'm not a girl" song whenever i say that. I find it very annoying. As you can see, my life is made up of endless predicaments that gives me major headaches everytime I wake up in the morning. It goes on daily and, ugh, i hate it. My aim is to be the best. Don't you ever wonder how your life is going to be after two decades? Doesn't life just scare you? Especially when things don't often go as planned. I'm very random,abrusive,environmental,straightforward,supportive,slightly vulnerable,enthusiastic,compassionate and attentive. All in one. Some might say I'm downrighted as I am not all that friendly to everyone. Just to some certain people. When I tell you I don't like you, I really really mean it. I love my circle of friends. I can get quite altruistic when it comes to being on their side. I'll support them even if they didn't ask me to. I can be inconsiderate at times. I can't say that I'm good in making decisions. But atleast I have the ability to decide which is wrong and which is right. I might sometimes use strong acrimonious words when I'm angry. I alienate myself away from my friends when I'm not in the right mood. Thats why sometimes, I prefer to be alone and isolated. But then, at times, i do take actions abruptly when someone tries to pick a fight with me. I have anger management issues. Take this as a precaution. Don't ever infuriate me. But I can still manage to control my raging temper. I try not to look back into the past nostalgically. It just gives me an immense heartache. You can say I'm a stalker. Haha. But I stalk some certain people only. I love shakespeare. They're all so tragically overwhelming. If you want to be my friend, make sure you're not treacherous. I hate traitors. So, from this introduction of mine, atleast you received some acquisitons based on my character. No worries, I don't bite people. But I do hate friggin perverts and friends who just pretend they're friends when they're actually some suck up mofo pricks! I'll shove a dick in your mouth if you make up any inconceivable rumours about me. And another thing, pLz d0N't tYpE lYk tHiZzZz! I find it highly inappropriate. Treat me prominently, and I will treat you the same way too. Get it? It's vice versa. So have a nice day. More will be updated soon once requested. Help save the environment please."

Do you see the difference between the person I am now with the person I was a year ago? Hmm.. At times, I miss being my old self. I was tough. And now, look at me. I'm a weakling. Can't even face a single predicament without bursting into tears feeling confused. How sad and pathetic is that? Tsssk.
My mind is so messed up right now. I'm a pile of mess. And I'm too hurt to fix myself up. :'( F, if only you know how badly I want you right now. :'(

Expressions

I couldn't think of something better to blog about, so, I decided to blog about how I feel. Mm.. Right now, I'm so confused. I'm in love with two people. F and U. They're both bestfriends. I liked F first, but, it didn't work out cause F was into B. I gave up on F and went along with U. U's alright. But, very unpredictable. U and I(as in me) got together almost immediately. It felt weird for some reason. Mmm.. Then, days after that, I just found out U has a boyfriend. I gave up on F because she's into B, and once I went along with U, U already has a boyfriend before we were even together. I felt so.... betrayed. Like, what am I to them? I've never gotten myself into this kind of situation before. My feelings are so messed up right now. I don't even know what to do. I'm so... blank. Like, what more do I have to do? I'm sick of running away. At this very one time, I want to solve things without getting to have a quick retreat. I'm tired of depending on easy way outs'.
What am I to do? Where am I to go? Who am I to refer to in need of comfort? Fuck all this. I'm tired.. :( Everything's so messed up.

Interestingly wonderful day :D

I had the most interesting day ever yesterday. I felt like blogging it up since I'm so excited to talk about it. :)
I was still at my friend's place. We just stayed at his place and watched some DVD. We watched Pulau Hantu and Pulau Hantu 2. It wasn't all that scary though. Especially when I was in Homie's arms. Mmm... I miss my Homie. Heheh. So yeah, after that, I was to be sent home by Fad. And go over to his girlfriend's house after that because his girlfriend wants to meet her mother. So, we took off. At first we stopped by at Kianggeh to eat. The soto is nice there. Siasiapun! After enjoying our meal, we sat for a while and smoked some cigarettes.
Suddenly, I received a text message from Piya saying that she will not be attending school on the First day of school. Nyeh. She also told me that the rest of my friends won't be attending school as well. So I gave it a deep thought and decided not to attend school as well. I'll just go to school aon the second day. And not only that, I get to spend more time with my Homie! Wheeeeeee. Hehe. (A)
And then, I just found out that Fad's girlfriend lives somewhere in Kg. Ayer, so we took a boatride. It was so fun. I've never been on a boatride before. It felt awesome. It was slso my first time going to Kg. Ayer. Like, I was so excited. Fad, Halus(Fad's Girlfriend), Laila(Halus's sister), Hafiz, Homie and I walked over to Halus's place as we got off the boat. I find the place quite fascinating. Especially their lifestyles. Mostly based on how they live their lives. We stayed at Halus's place for an hour or so. I finally had a private conversation with Homie. :) Telling her about my life and so on. She told me about her's as well.
Once Halus was done meeting her mother, we all left around 3:30am. But, to leave, we all had to wait for a boat. It's not like as if we'd swimm across. Pfft. That's crazy talk. Hahah. So we waited at the waiting shed. We saw some men fishing. We also saw all sort of fish they caught. We even get to see an "Ikan buntal" live in action. Hahah. Halus played with it and kicked it off the shore and back into the water. It was so funny. It took so long to get a boatride. Grrr! We waited for nearly an hour until we finally got a ride back on shore.
After we were all sent off, we walked back to the car. Row by row. Fad holding hands with Halus, Me holding hands with Homie and Hafiz just walking next to Laila. Hahah. Didn't mean to make them feel weird. :P
Moments after that, we were actually on our way back, until Fad received a call from a friend of his. I think it was his colleague. Cause Fad went straight to his office after that. We had to come along anyway, so yeah. I was playing my laptop at the back passenger seat with Homie. I showed her my pictures from back then. Gaaaaah! I was such a loser at that time. It was so embarassing. Hhaha. We stayed in the car while Hafiz and Fad took off to his office. We stayed there for a while. Almost like half an hour.
Finally, after Fad's done with his work, we all went back to Fad's place since we're all staying there for the night. Hee.. I love Homie! :D
I think that's all for today. I'm kind of tired. Actually, I'm exhausted! I'm finally at home after spending three wonderful days with Homie. :)
I miss Homie now :( Hmm... Oh well, I'm off to bed. Homie just sent me a text message telling me to go to sleep early cause I have to wake up early and go to school. Nyeh. Oh well, goodnight readers! Will update soon. Till next time............... *dum dum dum! :P

Sunday ; The last day of 3rd Term School Holidays (Saturday included)

Right about now, I'm at a friend of a friend's house. I decided to spend my last day with that someone special. Homie :) Can't reveal the real name, though. Hahah. It's Sunday. 4th of December. I bet Syazz is back from KL already. I've missed her. :) Mmm.. I'm so clueless. Haven't heard from her in a while.
Last night, I had the most terrible night ever. I went out with Homie, F, A and W. We got drunk. Hahah. I got drunk earlier cause I drank a lot before they did. So yeah.
We hung out at gadong for a bit, and decided to join some friends "Mengayau Gambus". Gambus are quite lame actually. I don't know what made me want to joian them. Maybe it's because Homie was with me. Hehehe (A) It was somewhere around Madang. At first I didn't want to go in. I wanted to just stay in the car but lastly, I got bored. So, I decided to join along. I sat further away from where the people were dancing. Gambus is not really something I'm interested in. And in the end, I got bored there as well. So, W and I decided to go back in the car and just stayed there. I know. I'm a really boring person. We sat at the back of the car, passenger seats I mean. We talked and talked and talked. I cried a little after remembering my Late Dad. May he rest in peace. Then, all of a sudden, W went out of the car. I think he punched somebody. When I looked outside, I saw people all over the place holding steels, metal pipes etc. I asked F, "What's going on?!!" From the looks of her, she looked really panicked. I can tell from the looks of the what was going on around the area that there's was a fight. Mmm.. I didn't know what to do. W and A must've ran off. Cause I can't seem to find them anywhere. F and I were the ones left in that area. How sad is that? But it's quite funny. A just left me, F and his car just to save himself. I don't hate him for that, though. he was only trying to save himself. But F and I were totally clueless. We didn't know what to do and where to go since we both don't know how to drive. I would just drove off. But that car doesn't belong to me. So, I was as terrified as F but I tried to control my fears. If we were both freaking out at the same time, for sure both of us will go down. So, I tried to calm her down. Hmm.. I felt pity for her. I know those people who attacked our friends wouldn't dare to hurt us. It nearly happened to F, though. But thank god there was a man in red who saved her from being hurt by those men. Overall, things were so fucked up last night. We were all thankful we're alright. The man in red brought us to the stadium cause our friend was about to pick us up there. On the way there, there were cars following us from behind. At first we thought it was those men who attacked our friends. But actually, it was the man in red's friends. As we arrived at the stadium, we stayed and talked and went along with the flow. :) They're nice people actually. If it weren't for them, F and I would end up in the hospital. How ironic is that?
Moments after that, I felt like I needed to pee. I wanted to hold it in, GRR! Who would manage to hold in their urine on a wet rainy day? I'd salute that person who'd manage to hold it in while it was raining heavily. So, F and I went to Orchid Garden hotel to use the girls' room. After what's done that has to be done, I told F that I would never let anything bad to happen to her. So, I leaned down and gave her a big hug. I couldn't think of a better way to convince her that everything's gonna be alright. So yeah, I came up with that. But I actually meant it.
Mm.. I'm not gonna tell the whole story in detail. It's quite confidential actually. So yeah. Overall, we're okay. We're all safe. We stayed at a friend's place for the night. Just me, Homie, F and P.
It's almost dinner time. I gotta go. I'll update soon. Heheh. Till next time :)

As requested :)

I haven't blogged in a while. I've been quite busy with outings until blogging never came across my mind. Isn't it amazing how things or different types of activities are able to distract us? Hmm.. Oh well, I'm blogging because a close relative of mine requested me to start blogging again. I don't now why, but she likes reading my posts. I see nothing interesting about my blog, so yeah. I'll always be your weirdest cousin, Syu. :)
Anyway, the school holidays must've taken me over. I've been in and out, here and there all over places trynna to locate some fun, but sadly, I'm still searching. Searching for the places for teenagers by my age to learn and have fun a the same time. There are so many to learn in all places. Most likely to be everywhere actually. I've never met anyone who takes outings as an advantage for learning. It's all based on the experiences we are meant to gain. I love to go out and do whatever. Even if something bad happens to me, all I can do is smile. Cause that's what
I'm aiming for. Learning from mistakes is pretty effective. So that you're well aware of things that has happened to you during that particular time. Yes, you can say I let things happen to me. I don't really care how bad it is, as long as I get to learn how to prevent it from happening again. All based on the decisions we made, the steps we take, the words we say etc.
At times, I am so mad at myself. I have this inner anger that I find it very difficult to let go. I've been so frustrated over all the things that has happened to me. Mostly, horrible things. So yeah. I'm just mad at myself for all that has happened to me. I'm not saying I purposely made my life complicated or so, but I'm just confused with all that has happened to me. Like, sometimes I even question myself, why am I doing this to myself? Have I completely lost my mind? Do I need a reality check? I'm just so curious. What is it about me that's making me do all these things? Some say it's the devil in me that's making me and convincing me to do all these things. Yes, I admit. I'm an alcoholic. A heavy drinker. There's been a lot going on, I couldn't handle it. So, I gave up and went straight to alcohol. I want to forget, but I couldn't think of a better way. :/
I wouldn't kill myself, thats for sure. Hurt myself? Maybe a little bit. Heheh. But I wouldn't hurt myself too much, that's for sure.
So anyway, right now, I'm at Chill. Waiting for Tuti. I invited her to watch movies with me. Haven't thought of what to watch, but yeah. I'm starving to death! I feel weak on my chest. :( I'm thinking of what to order. Mmm..... For sure I want something appetizing. But I'm not so sure what to order.

(after a few minutes)

I've finally decided to order myself a coconut shake and baked mac and cheese. Mmm... Yum yum. :) I have the appetite of a hungry boar. I'd gobble up almost anything. Try me. :)

(after half an hour)

Okay, I'm full. Now I'm enjoying myself by smoking a cigarette. Aaaah.. Feels good. :) So, I think I'ma stop here. I'll update soon or later on. Till next time....... *dum dum dum ;)

Welcome, December

I can't believe it's already December. Time goes by so fast. Like a blink of an eye. I've been quite upset lately. I miss my baby, that's for sure. And I lost my favourite jacket :'( It's been with me before my dad passed away and while I was with Ass. So, it means so much to me, and now it's missing. Mum took me shopping to make me feel better. I bought a lot of clothings bla bla bla but nothing can make me feel any better. That jacket is everything in the world to me. Hmm... :'(
So yeah, that jacket and I, we've been through an awful lot of wisdom. It's been through a lot of things with me. Tears, stench, body odour, mucus, blood, sweat etc. Hahaha. I know I sound more likely to be a lunatic for being so sentimental about a piece of clothing. But yeah, that's just how much I value things. That's just me. Everything has it's own value. Not by its price. But by how much it means to you. Like a loved one for example. Someone you've known and been through everything together for a long period of time. Would you care if your loved one disappeared? Won't you be looking for him/her? I mean, shouldn't you? Aren't you supposed to care? Won't you be worried? Won't you feel the difference? Like as if there's a missing piece of puzzle. I mean, usually, it's the loved ones that keeps you going. That's why we have friends, companionships, lovers etc. And to me, that jacket is more like a companionship on terms of objects or unliving things if you want to put it that way. I'm very sentimental about my things, my properties and my belongings. Including all that which is personal to me.

So anyway, obviously, I'm still wide awake. That's just me, you know. I always have trouble sleeping. It's commonly ordinary to me. But others find it a bit weird. Got nothing to say about that. I chatted with an old friend of mine. We haven't seen each other for ages. But from her pictures, I'd say she's getting gorgeous. Like, if she was at a cocktail party, you wouldn't miss her. She's be noticed in every corner of the room. Her beauty is simply eye-catching and breathtaking. So yeah, nevermind about that. Hahah. I can't continue. Cause I'm actually drooling. hahaha. Anyway, we were going out for dinner, and I couldn't take my eyes off her. I've never seen such beauty. I know I sound too deep right now. But that's just how I am as well. Everything that surrounds me just fascinates me. Back to the story. She was telling me about her life so far, and every word she spoke automatically took my every interest. She's very well educated, smart, beautiful. If only she was untouched. I mean, like a sculpture. Okay. I'm being too deep and I highly doubt you understand what I'm saying. I'm just very attracted to the beauty of Art. Some artists think that by using Art as a weapon, they can change the world. Do you believe that? I'm not sure I do. But all I want to do is enjoy everything around me. It's not much. But it's worth it. It's more like an assignment for collecting ideas.

Enough with all that art crap. Let's move on. Don't get me wrong. I do love art. But, I've exaggerated too much. I don't really know what it's for.
So, since it's already december, I've been thinking of my New Year's resolutions. Hmm.... Should I change for the better? Or the good? I just want to be my very best. Even during the Holidays, I still feel pressured. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I just want to be one of those succesfully accomplished women by the time I've grown up into adulthood. If only I could pay much more attention in classes and focus with my studies. It's just so hard. Especially for someone like me. I get fascinated over little things easily. It's a good and a bad thing because firstly, fascination leads to a certain interest. But, instead of concentration, it would be considered as distraction from paying attention. It's not wrong to be fascinated by the beauty of God's creation but, at times it has its limits. That's why I stated that it's both a good and a bad thing.

Ahh, all this talk is wearing me out. I'm not sleepy. I'm just tired and I not to save up my energy for work tomorrow. I hope my baby's alright. Ass slept earlier ago. I think. I don't know. I just hope he's fine. Baby, I love you so much. Te Quiero Con Toda Mi Alma, Mi Amor.

Story Of The Week

I don't have much to say actually. On Monday, I hung out with my girls. Wednesday, went out with my Baby. Thursday, I went out with Dice to get ourselves a haircut. Today, I hung out with Dave and Raymond at Chill. So, basically, everything occured in Gadong.
Here are some pictures.

Out with me and my girlies :)

Dice was so kusut when he had his haircut. He even managed to pose. :P

This is Dave and Raymond (Y)

DAVEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :D

Why is it so complicated?

I don't know how to start actually. It's late, obviously. Somehow, I still can't figure out why these eyes won't shut. I haven't been sleeping well for days. Insomnia? Probably. I hope not. I'm currently chatting with my baby. (L) EEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I love you so much wah yo! Hahaha. Like I said, baby. "Let me lie down on your chest and listen to your heart beating as you hold me in your arms and make me feel safe." :)
Anyway, I went out with my girls days ago which was on Monday. We never thought we'd ever hang out on a Monday. We usually go out on Thursday Nights and Saturday Nights. Sadly, I can't spend time with them on Thursdays' and Saturdays' because I'm working during those days. Bummer, huh? Oh well, what can I do about it? Responsibilities comes first. Mmmmyeah.
I've been feeling really crappy all day today. I don't know why. I was so blank...... completely. It's weird. It's like a mind tease as well. Ahh.. I cried last night. Until I lost my contact lens. Kirakan ganas jua sudah tu ku menangis aah. So yeah. Mum bought me a new pair. The sales assistant said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry to say you have estigmatism. But the toric contact lens you need for the right side of your eye is currently unavailable. I will give you the normal contact lens, but it will not be as clear as wearing eyeglasses." So yeah, I was like.. "Um.. Really? How much has my degree increased?" And she said, "for your right eye, from -2.50 to -4.00 and for your left, from -2.75 to -3.25." And I was like, "Whoa!" Hahah. Yes, mummy. I'll start eating my carrots. I don't like carrots, actually. It has that bizzare taste. Well, for me. I don't know about you guys. I love eating Caesar salad and other green vegetables(including the purple coloured ones), but not carrots.
Right now, I'm listening to Until the end of time by Justin timberlake and Beyonce'. Hmm.. I miss my baby so much. No no.. I will not cry again. I don't want want another pair of contact lens to go missing again.
Anyway, I'm thinking of making a new email. My current email is getting lame. And a lot of people complain that it's too long. Letmebeyoureffingballerina@hotmail.com? Does that seem long to you? Oh well, no need to answer that. Hahah.
Oh well, I'm blank now. Will update more soon. Gidday, Mate! :)

A little something from me to you

I just want you to know that I love only you, baby. Just you. And it's so true. I am totally in love with you. :')

Busybusybusy

So far, I've been caught up with work lately. That's one of the very good reason why I haven't been blogging. I've been so busy, I got caugt up with a lot of things. Anyway, I'm not working today. So yeah. I got some free time for blogging. I'm currently working at Chill which is located at The Mall, Gadong. I'm working as a part-time waitress. Hey, it's better working than doing nothing during the holidays. And plus, I need the extra pocket money. I can't keep on depending on my mother's money. Not only that, I want to learn how to earn money by myself. At least I'm commited to it. If not, I'd be a spoiled brat by now. No offense, my intention is not to offend anyone in particular. I'm just saying it on my own behalf.
Currently, I'm missing someone. We just had our 3rd Monthsary yesterday. It was fabulous. I never had an amazing Monthsary before. Oh, baby. I thank you so much for such an amazing day. It means so much to me. I love you so much, Ass :') That was the first romantic outing ever. If only you could've focused a lot on me than football. pfft. Oh well, at least we had fun. Mmm... I'll treasure that moment in me forever, baby. I love you so much. So so very much :')
Right this very minute, I'm kind of thinking. What am I gonna do tomorrow? I have absolutely no plans nor even anything to do at all. Hmm.. I think I should just rest at home since I'll be woring the very next day. I'm only woring four times a week, which is Thursdays' till Sundays'. It's a tough job. Especially on weekends. There's always a crowd. You have no idea. It does seem like a simple and boring job, but hey, I don't mind woring six hours a day. It's worth it :)

Badminton.

I was looking through Abi's blog. And I found one of my picture during the badminton tournament which was held at PTEB last april. I looked horrible. Didn't know he took a shot of it. So anyway, I took the picture. Sorry, Abi. I forgot to link you. hahah.

Hello, Earthlings.

As you all heard, well, some of you. hahah. I've recovered from an emotional breakdown. I haven't fully recovered though. Little by little. It's nearly 1:30 am. I can't sleep. I've been feeling so fucked up lately. Hmm.. I kinda miss school and that tall, sexy ninja that used to stalk me around. Mmm... I miss you :/ So yeah, I'm bored and took pictures of myself. Wanna take a look? Here you go.

So yeahh, that's Nani in boredom mode. Hahaha. Recently, I chatted with my best buddy, Dice. He's an awesome friend. He's changed so much. In a good way. We chatted this one night. And, he managed to make me laugh. I was really upset at that time. Luckily he was there to make me feel better. Otherwise, who knows what might happen. I was really stressed out. Anyway, he knew I'd blog about this so he said, "Hello, Earthlings. "

Oh, guess what? I've managed to get a part time job. I can't tell you where. But for those who's faces are always seen in Gadong, you'll figure out where I'm working. And if you do know, just keep it low. Hahah. I'm gonna start working this Thursday. Aaaah. Can't wait for my first day. This is the newest beginning of another new experience. (Y)

I'm kinda missing someone right now. I bet you know who you are. Sayang, I'm sorry for what I said earlier. I was so stupid. I've always been stupid. Mmm, I love you so much! And I'm really really sorry. :/ Nani misses you, ya'know?

A dedication to the bored and jobless.

I'm so bored like hell. I'm currently cahtting with my baby. It goes a little something like this:

Ass. just sent you a nudge.

You have just sent a nudge.

Ass. says (6:07 PM):
behh
Ass. says (6:07 PM):

:)
Nani says (6:07 PM):
apakan nudge nudge ani?
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
i Love you man.
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
haha
Nani says (6:07 PM):
i love you too wah dude.

hahah. Well, that's my baby. I love my baby to teenyweeny bits.

Anyway, I had an all-boring day today. Been missing my baby. Ahh.. And I miss my baby girls. Nabilah Rosli, Piyawan Takamchai and Nabilah Hazirah Karim. I know I know. I've alredy met them last night. Piya, Zye and I watched The Coffin. It was awesome! It could've been better if nabs was with us as well. But oh well, at least we had fun. It's not Nabs's fault she had to go home early.

My mind is so messed up right now. For I don't know what reason. I mean, exam's over. What more should I be thinking about? Hmm.. Maybe it's because I miss my baby too much.

I did this little discovery. I'm really into all sorts of reptiles. It all started when I disected a lizard when I was 5 years old. I'm not a criminal or a weirdo, okay? I was just amazed when I saw its tail was still moving eventhough it was disconnected to the other remainings of its tail. So, it made me thought. Why not cut its body to half. And I did. I remembered I saw somethinhg white-ish looking in it. I think it was an egg. Oh well. Anyway, I have this huge interest in snakes, lizards, dinosaurs etc. My favourite reptile is the Komodo Dragon. So far, I can't get enough of that thing. I know its deadly and everything. But I'd like to have the opportunity to study that deadly creature someday. The Komodo dragon (Varanus komodoensis) is a species of lizard that inhabits the islands of Komodo, Rincaa, Floress, Gili Motang , and Gili Dasami, in central Indonesia. A member of the monitor lizard family (Varanidae), it is the largest living species of lizard, growing to an average length of 2 to 3 metres (6.6 to 9.8 ft) and weighing around 70 kilograms (150 lb). Their unusual size is attributed to island gigantism, since there are no other carnivorous animals to fill the niche on the islands where they live, and also to the Komodo dragon's low metabolic rate. As a result of their size, these lizards are apex predators, dominating the ecosystems in which they live. Although Komodo dragons eat mostly carrion, they will also hunt and ambush prey including invertebrates, birds, and mammals.

It's quite a rare species. You don't find it very often. The Komodo dragon started with the Varanus genus, which originated in Asia about 40 million years ago and migrated to Australia. Around 15 million years ago, a collision between Australia and Southeast Asia allowed the varanids to move into what is now the Indonesian archipelago. The Komodo dragon is believed to have differentiated from its Australian ancestors 4 million years ago, extending their range to as far east as the island of Timor. The ice age and its dramatic sea level changes brought the islands that the Komodo dragons inhabited into their present locations, isolating them in their present range.

The Komodo dragon does not have a particularly acute sense of hearing, despite its visible earholes, and is only able to hear sounds between 400 and 2000 hertz. It is able to see as far away as 300 metres which is about 980ft. , but because its retinas only contain cones, it is thought to have poor night vision. The Komodo dragon is able to see in color, but has poor visual discrimination of stationary objects. The Komodo dragon uses its tongue to detect taste and smell stimuli, as with many other reptiles, with the vomeronasal sense using a Jacobson's organ, a sense that aids navigation in the dark. With the help of a favorable wind and its habit of swinging its head from side to side as it walks, Komodo dragons may be able to detect carrion from 4–9.5 kilometres (2.5–6 mi) away. The dragon's nostrils are not of great use for smelling, as the animal does not have a diaphragm. It only has a few taste buds in the back of its throat. Its scales, some of which are reinforced with bone, have sensory plaques connected to nerves that facilitate its sense of touch. The scales around the ears, lips, chin, and soles of the feet may have three or more sensory plaques. The Komodo dragon was formerly thought to be deaf when a study reported no agitation in wild Komodo dragons in response to whispers, raised voices, or shouts.

The Komodo dragon prefers hot and dry places, and typically lives in dry open grassland, savanna, and tropical forest at low elevations. As an ectotherm, it is most active in the day, although it exhibits some nocturnal activity. Komodo dragons are largely solitary, coming together only to breed and eat. They are capable of running rapidly in brief sprints up to 20 kilometres per hour (12.4 mph), diving up to 4.5 metres (15 ft), and climbing trees proficiently when young through use of their strong claws. To catch prey that is out of reach, the Komodo dragon may stand on its hind legs and use its tail as a support. As the Komodo dragon matures, its claws are used primarily as weapons, as its great size makes climbing impractical.

For shelter, the Komodo dragon digs holes that can measure from 1–3 metres (3–10 ft) wide with its powerful forelimbs and claws. Because of its large size and habit of sleeping in these burrows, it is able to conserve body heat throughout the night and minimize its basking period the morning after. The Komodo dragon typically hunts in the afternoon, but stays in the shade during the hottest part of the day. These special resting places, usually located on ridges with a cool sea breeze, are marked with droppings and are cleared of vegetation. They also serve as a strategic location from which to ambush deer.

Komodo dragons are carnivores. Although they eat mostly carrion, they will also ambush live prey with a stealthy approach. When suitable prey arrives near a dragon's ambush site, it will suddenly charge at the animal and go for the underside or the throat. It is able to locate its prey using its keen sense of smell, which can locate a dead or dying animal from a range of up to 9.5 kilometers (6 miles). Komodo dragons have also been observed knocking down large pigs and deer with their strong tail.

Komodo dragons eat by tearing large chunks of flesh and swallowing them whole while holding the carcass down with their forelegs. For smaller prey up to the size of a goat, their loosely articulated jaws, flexible skull, and expandable stomach allow it to swallow its prey whole. The vegetable contents of the stomach and intestines are typically avoided. Copious amounts of red saliva that the Komodo dragons produce helps to lubricate the food, but swallowing is still a long process (15–20 minutes to swallow a goat). Komodo dragons may attempt to speed up the process by ramming the carcass against a tree to force it down its throat, sometimes ramming so forcefully that the tree is knocked down. To prevent itself from suffocating while swallowing, it breathes using a small tube under the tongue that connects to the lungs. After eating up to 80 percent of its body weight in one meal, it drags itself to a sunny location to speed digestion, as the food could rot and poison the dragon if left undigested for too long. Because of their slow metabolism, large dragons can survive on as little as 12 meals a year. After digestion, the Komodo dragon regurgitates a mass of horns, hair, and teeth known as the gastric pellet, which is covered in malodorous mucus. After regurgitating the gastric pellet, it rubs its face in the dirt or on bushes to get rid of the mucus, suggesting that it, like humans, does not relish the scent of its own excretions.

The largest animals generally eat first, while the smaller ones follow a hierarchy. The largest male asserts his dominance and the smaller males show their submission by use of body language and rumbling hisses. Dragons of equal size may resort to "wrestling." Losers usually retreat, though have been known to be killed and eaten by victors.

Komodo dragons also possess virulent bacteria in their saliva, of which more than 28 Gram-negative and 29 Gram-positive strains have been isolated. These bacteria cause septicemia in their victim; if an initial bite does not kill the prey animal and it escapes, it will commonly succumb within a week to the resulting infection. The most harmful bacterium in Komodo dragon saliva appears to be a deadly strain of Pasteurella multocida, from studies performed with lab mice. There is no specific antidote to the bite of a Komodo dragon, but it can usually be treated by cleansing the wounded area and giving the patient large doses of antibiotics. If not treated promptly, gangrene can quickly develop around the bite, which may require amputation of the affected area. Because the Komodo dragon appears immune to its own microbes, much research has been done searching for the antibacterial molecule(s) in the hopes of human medicinal use.

Oh well, that's all the facts I can collect about this deadly species.

Here are some pictures if you are not familiar with this reptile:

Girls Day Out.

I went out with my girls today. Can't say much. I'm too sleepy. Oh well. Here's a picture of my girls. I'm not in it cause I'm the one taking the photo. Very unfortunate of me, huh? Oh well, I love my girls.

Nani 2007, I miss.

A few pictures of me back then in year 2007.

Last year's photos of me. I miss the old days. :'/

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I am a complete significance of all insignificance. The perfection of imperfection. I'm being random actually. I'm hurt. And, all I could do is type down everything that is at the tip of my mind right now. I haven't been myself in a while. I haven't fully recovered after my Father's departure. He's never coming back :'(
My life has been nothing but miserable. Eversince my dad's gone, there's been a lot going on. I feel so pressured. I'm my mom's only hope. What more should I say about my brothers? They're hopeless, unreliable, selfish, irresponsible and spoiled. And because of that, my mom keeps encouraging me to be the very best for the family. I just don't want her to put her hopes on me too much. Don't get me wrong. I am willing to do all that. But I need more time. And that's not the only problem. My Father's siblings are fighting over the inheritance. My mom bought two lands in Tanah Jambu and Sengkurong for our future use. But it's unfair to my mom. She purchased those lands with her own money. She only included my dad's name as a sign of how much she loves him. And what's really unfair, they get 1/6 of the land's share and my mom only gets 1/8. It's unfair. It's my mom's property. Shouldn't they be ashamed of fighting over something that doesn't even belong to them. And they're even starting to nag my mom to sell our car to them. Ughh. I'm trying as hard as I can to be strong and hold on. Each day, I have to face all these predicaments. What better life should I be in?
Honestly, I admit. I fake a smile everyday. I'm a very sensitive person. But people don't know that cause I've always been mean and sarcastic. I have main reasons for being insensitive. So that people won't see me as someone who can get hurt easily. Not only that, I'm doing it to protect my feelings. I know, we all have limits. I'm an odd person. *sighss.
My life isn't all that perfect. I would consider my life perfect when I've fulfilled all my purposes in life. Oh, God. I guess this is the karma I get for being such an ass back then. This is the perfect punishment for me. I'm so close to giving up.
Sayang, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I love you. And in this sort of situation, you'll always be the person I need to talk to, to dry my tears away, to convince me that everything's gonna be alright. I love you, I truly do. :'/

I don't wanna lose you

I dedicate this song to you, baby. You know who you are. I love you :')

Stress kills

It's late, I'm supposed to be asleep by now. I'm kinda waiting for something. But I'd rather not mention it here. I had quite a day. ...Hmm.. Actually, No. Have you ever encountered that feeling of losing something or someone each day? If you do, quickly tell me what to do. So yeah, I made a new friend. His name is Ashraf Ahmad. Quite a nice guy. Quite a charmer. He's coming 26 years old and works at private foreign company. Well, that's what he told me. And he plays softball. That's nice. Anyway, I had my English Paper 2 and Maths Paper 2 this morning. It was alright. I came late to school and started the Maths test late. But thankfully, I managed to finish the paper on time. And again, something keeps bothering me. Tomorrow I'm gonna have both Combined Science Paper 1 and Paper 2.
All of a sudden I lost my mood in blogging. I miss that particular someone who isn't talking to me right now. :'(
Will update soon. Goodnight.

Exam Fever

Currently, I'm still in the middle of havin my exam. I have exactly six papers to go, then I'm free. Plus, I haven't gone out with my baby and my girls in a while. :/ Anyway, so yeah. As you all have noticed, I haven't been blogging much since last month. I'm blogging cause I'm bored and I can't sleep. Yesterday, I had my Art exam. Art Paper 1 and Paper 4. Paper 1 is still life drawing and observation. Paper 4 is based on imagination. I did a bit well in paper 1. I tried not to make it look so crappy. I started at 7:30 am and finished it around 9:45 am. All we had to draw was a banana, an apple, an orange, a flower and a piece of cloth. It was okay. We didn't have enough time to go for break so we just continued with paper 4. I drew a landslide. It took me approximately 15 minutes to finish drawing. I just used the abstract drawing method. While I was painting, I started thinking about my baby. I miss Ass. :( I got so moody I felt like leaving the class. Plus, it doesn't seem right. We're not supposed to do both Art papers on the same day. We can't get both inspiration within the day. It was like artistic suicide. So, in the end, my art looked crappy instead. I just don't like doing Art when I'm not in the mood. Instead, I prefer to study my pain away. I find studying quite effective when it comes to relaxing. Aaah. I miss Ass. Ass is probably asleep by now. I'm bored and I got noone to chat to. Which reminds me.. I have D Maths Paper 2 and English Paper 2 exam on Monday. I'm not that anxious. Maths and English are the easiest subjects. And then the next day, which is Tuesday, I'm going to have my Combined Science Paper 1 and 2. To me, Science subjects are also quite easy. I'm just not very fond of POA. It's one of the subjects I'm weak at. I hate it. Sadly, I have to do the Paper anyway which is on Wednesday.
Aahhh. I can't wait till its 4:21am. That's the exact time Ass proposed me when we first got together. It's our 11th Weeksary. :') Baby, Te Quiero Con Toda Mi Alma.
Oh well, I'm off. I have other things to update. Will update soon. Much much love. xoxo