As requested :)

I haven't blogged in a while. I've been quite busy with outings until blogging never came across my mind. Isn't it amazing how things or different types of activities are able to distract us? Hmm.. Oh well, I'm blogging because a close relative of mine requested me to start blogging again. I don't now why, but she likes reading my posts. I see nothing interesting about my blog, so yeah. I'll always be your weirdest cousin, Syu. :)
Anyway, the school holidays must've taken me over. I've been in and out, here and there all over places trynna to locate some fun, but sadly, I'm still searching. Searching for the places for teenagers by my age to learn and have fun a the same time. There are so many to learn in all places. Most likely to be everywhere actually. I've never met anyone who takes outings as an advantage for learning. It's all based on the experiences we are meant to gain. I love to go out and do whatever. Even if something bad happens to me, all I can do is smile. Cause that's what
I'm aiming for. Learning from mistakes is pretty effective. So that you're well aware of things that has happened to you during that particular time. Yes, you can say I let things happen to me. I don't really care how bad it is, as long as I get to learn how to prevent it from happening again. All based on the decisions we made, the steps we take, the words we say etc.
At times, I am so mad at myself. I have this inner anger that I find it very difficult to let go. I've been so frustrated over all the things that has happened to me. Mostly, horrible things. So yeah. I'm just mad at myself for all that has happened to me. I'm not saying I purposely made my life complicated or so, but I'm just confused with all that has happened to me. Like, sometimes I even question myself, why am I doing this to myself? Have I completely lost my mind? Do I need a reality check? I'm just so curious. What is it about me that's making me do all these things? Some say it's the devil in me that's making me and convincing me to do all these things. Yes, I admit. I'm an alcoholic. A heavy drinker. There's been a lot going on, I couldn't handle it. So, I gave up and went straight to alcohol. I want to forget, but I couldn't think of a better way. :/
I wouldn't kill myself, thats for sure. Hurt myself? Maybe a little bit. Heheh. But I wouldn't hurt myself too much, that's for sure.
So anyway, right now, I'm at Chill. Waiting for Tuti. I invited her to watch movies with me. Haven't thought of what to watch, but yeah. I'm starving to death! I feel weak on my chest. :( I'm thinking of what to order. Mmm..... For sure I want something appetizing. But I'm not so sure what to order.

(after a few minutes)

I've finally decided to order myself a coconut shake and baked mac and cheese. Mmm... Yum yum. :) I have the appetite of a hungry boar. I'd gobble up almost anything. Try me. :)

(after half an hour)

Okay, I'm full. Now I'm enjoying myself by smoking a cigarette. Aaaah.. Feels good. :) So, I think I'ma stop here. I'll update soon or later on. Till next time....... *dum dum dum ;)