Why is it so complicated?

I don't know how to start actually. It's late, obviously. Somehow, I still can't figure out why these eyes won't shut. I haven't been sleeping well for days. Insomnia? Probably. I hope not. I'm currently chatting with my baby. (L) EEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I love you so much wah yo! Hahaha. Like I said, baby. "Let me lie down on your chest and listen to your heart beating as you hold me in your arms and make me feel safe." :)
Anyway, I went out with my girls days ago which was on Monday. We never thought we'd ever hang out on a Monday. We usually go out on Thursday Nights and Saturday Nights. Sadly, I can't spend time with them on Thursdays' and Saturdays' because I'm working during those days. Bummer, huh? Oh well, what can I do about it? Responsibilities comes first. Mmmmyeah.
I've been feeling really crappy all day today. I don't know why. I was so blank...... completely. It's weird. It's like a mind tease as well. Ahh.. I cried last night. Until I lost my contact lens. Kirakan ganas jua sudah tu ku menangis aah. So yeah. Mum bought me a new pair. The sales assistant said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry to say you have estigmatism. But the toric contact lens you need for the right side of your eye is currently unavailable. I will give you the normal contact lens, but it will not be as clear as wearing eyeglasses." So yeah, I was like.. "Um.. Really? How much has my degree increased?" And she said, "for your right eye, from -2.50 to -4.00 and for your left, from -2.75 to -3.25." And I was like, "Whoa!" Hahah. Yes, mummy. I'll start eating my carrots. I don't like carrots, actually. It has that bizzare taste. Well, for me. I don't know about you guys. I love eating Caesar salad and other green vegetables(including the purple coloured ones), but not carrots.
Right now, I'm listening to Until the end of time by Justin timberlake and Beyonce'. Hmm.. I miss my baby so much. No no.. I will not cry again. I don't want want another pair of contact lens to go missing again.
Anyway, I'm thinking of making a new email. My current email is getting lame. And a lot of people complain that it's too long. Letmebeyoureffingballerina@hotmail.com? Does that seem long to you? Oh well, no need to answer that. Hahah.
Oh well, I'm blank now. Will update more soon. Gidday, Mate! :)