Thursday, 4 December 2008
Welcome, December
So yeah, that jacket and I, we've been through an awful lot of wisdom. It's been through a lot of things with me. Tears, stench, body odour, mucus, blood, sweat etc. Hahaha. I know I sound more likely to be a lunatic for being so sentimental about a piece of clothing. But yeah, that's just how much I value things. That's just me. Everything has it's own value. Not by its price. But by how much it means to you. Like a loved one for example. Someone you've known and been through everything together for a long period of time. Would you care if your loved one disappeared? Won't you be looking for him/her? I mean, shouldn't you? Aren't you supposed to care? Won't you be worried? Won't you feel the difference? Like as if there's a missing piece of puzzle. I mean, usually, it's the loved ones that keeps you going. That's why we have friends, companionships, lovers etc. And to me, that jacket is more like a companionship on terms of objects or unliving things if you want to put it that way. I'm very sentimental about my things, my properties and my belongings. Including all that which is personal to me.
So anyway, obviously, I'm still wide awake. That's just me, you know. I always have trouble sleeping. It's commonly ordinary to me. But others find it a bit weird. Got nothing to say about that. I chatted with an old friend of mine. We haven't seen each other for ages. But from her pictures, I'd say she's getting gorgeous. Like, if she was at a cocktail party, you wouldn't miss her. She's be noticed in every corner of the room. Her beauty is simply eye-catching and breathtaking. So yeah, nevermind about that. Hahah. I can't continue. Cause I'm actually drooling. hahaha. Anyway, we were going out for dinner, and I couldn't take my eyes off her. I've never seen such beauty. I know I sound too deep right now. But that's just how I am as well. Everything that surrounds me just fascinates me. Back to the story. She was telling me about her life so far, and every word she spoke automatically took my every interest. She's very well educated, smart, beautiful. If only she was untouched. I mean, like a sculpture. Okay. I'm being too deep and I highly doubt you understand what I'm saying. I'm just very attracted to the beauty of Art. Some artists think that by using Art as a weapon, they can change the world. Do you believe that? I'm not sure I do. But all I want to do is enjoy everything around me. It's not much. But it's worth it. It's more like an assignment for collecting ideas.
Enough with all that art crap. Let's move on. Don't get me wrong. I do love art. But, I've exaggerated too much. I don't really know what it's for.
So, since it's already december, I've been thinking of my New Year's resolutions. Hmm.... Should I change for the better? Or the good? I just want to be my very best. Even during the Holidays, I still feel pressured. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? I just want to be one of those succesfully accomplished women by the time I've grown up into adulthood. If only I could pay much more attention in classes and focus with my studies. It's just so hard. Especially for someone like me. I get fascinated over little things easily. It's a good and a bad thing because firstly, fascination leads to a certain interest. But, instead of concentration, it would be considered as distraction from paying attention. It's not wrong to be fascinated by the beauty of God's creation but, at times it has its limits. That's why I stated that it's both a good and a bad thing.
Ahh, all this talk is wearing me out. I'm not sleepy. I'm just tired and I not to save up my energy for work tomorrow. I hope my baby's alright. Ass slept earlier ago. I think. I don't know. I just hope he's fine. Baby, I love you so much. Te Quiero Con Toda Mi Alma, Mi Amor.
Saturday, 29 November 2008
Story Of The Week
Here are some pictures.
Out with me and my girlies :)
DAVEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! :D
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
Why is it so complicated?
Anyway, I went out with my girls days ago which was on Monday. We never thought we'd ever hang out on a Monday. We usually go out on Thursday Nights and Saturday Nights. Sadly, I can't spend time with them on Thursdays' and Saturdays' because I'm working during those days. Bummer, huh? Oh well, what can I do about it? Responsibilities comes first. Mmmmyeah.
I've been feeling really crappy all day today. I don't know why. I was so blank...... completely. It's weird. It's like a mind tease as well. Ahh.. I cried last night. Until I lost my contact lens. Kirakan ganas jua sudah tu ku menangis aah. So yeah. Mum bought me a new pair. The sales assistant said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry to say you have estigmatism. But the toric contact lens you need for the right side of your eye is currently unavailable. I will give you the normal contact lens, but it will not be as clear as wearing eyeglasses." So yeah, I was like.. "Um.. Really? How much has my degree increased?" And she said, "for your right eye, from -2.50 to -4.00 and for your left, from -2.75 to -3.25." And I was like, "Whoa!" Hahah. Yes, mummy. I'll start eating my carrots. I don't like carrots, actually. It has that bizzare taste. Well, for me. I don't know about you guys. I love eating Caesar salad and other green vegetables(including the purple coloured ones), but not carrots.
Right now, I'm listening to Until the end of time by Justin timberlake and Beyonce'. Hmm.. I miss my baby so much. No no.. I will not cry again. I don't want want another pair of contact lens to go missing again.
Anyway, I'm thinking of making a new email. My current email is getting lame. And a lot of people complain that it's too long. Letmebeyoureffingballerina@hotmail.com? Does that seem long to you? Oh well, no need to answer that. Hahah.
Oh well, I'm blank now. Will update more soon. Gidday, Mate! :)
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
A little something from me to you
Busybusybusy
Currently, I'm missing someone. We just had our 3rd Monthsary yesterday. It was fabulous. I never had an amazing Monthsary before. Oh, baby. I thank you so much for such an amazing day. It means so much to me. I love you so much, Ass :') That was the first romantic outing ever. If only you could've focused a lot on me than football. pfft. Oh well, at least we had fun. Mmm... I'll treasure that moment in me forever, baby. I love you so much. So so very much :')
Right this very minute, I'm kind of thinking. What am I gonna do tomorrow? I have absolutely no plans nor even anything to do at all. Hmm.. I think I should just rest at home since I'll be woring the very next day. I'm only woring four times a week, which is Thursdays' till Sundays'. It's a tough job. Especially on weekends. There's always a crowd. You have no idea. It does seem like a simple and boring job, but hey, I don't mind woring six hours a day. It's worth it :)
Wednesday, 12 November 2008
Badminton.
Hello, Earthlings.
So yeahh, that's Nani in boredom mode. Hahaha. Recently, I chatted with my best buddy, Dice. He's an awesome friend. He's changed so much. In a good way. We chatted this one night. And, he managed to make me laugh. I was really upset at that time. Luckily he was there to make me feel better. Otherwise, who knows what might happen. I was really stressed out. Anyway, he knew I'd blog about this so he said, "Hello, Earthlings. "
Oh, guess what? I've managed to get a part time job. I can't tell you where. But for those who's faces are always seen in Gadong, you'll figure out where I'm working. And if you do know, just keep it low. Hahah. I'm gonna start working this Thursday. Aaaah. Can't wait for my first day. This is the newest beginning of another new experience. (Y)
I'm kinda missing someone right now. I bet you know who you are. Sayang, I'm sorry for what I said earlier. I was so stupid. I've always been stupid. Mmm, I love you so much! And I'm really really sorry. :/ Nani misses you, ya'know?
Friday, 7 November 2008
A dedication to the bored and jobless.
You have just sent a nudge.
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
behh
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
Nani says (6:07 PM):
apakan nudge nudge ani?
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
i Love you man.
Ass. says (6:07 PM):
haha
Nani says (6:07 PM):
i love you too wah dude.
Girls Day Out.
Wednesday, 5 November 2008
Tuesday, 4 November 2008
......
My life has been nothing but miserable. Eversince my dad's gone, there's been a lot going on. I feel so pressured. I'm my mom's only hope. What more should I say about my brothers? They're hopeless, unreliable, selfish, irresponsible and spoiled. And because of that, my mom keeps encouraging me to be the very best for the family. I just don't want her to put her hopes on me too much. Don't get me wrong. I am willing to do all that. But I need more time. And that's not the only problem. My Father's siblings are fighting over the inheritance. My mom bought two lands in Tanah Jambu and Sengkurong for our future use. But it's unfair to my mom. She purchased those lands with her own money. She only included my dad's name as a sign of how much she loves him. And what's really unfair, they get 1/6 of the land's share and my mom only gets 1/8. It's unfair. It's my mom's property. Shouldn't they be ashamed of fighting over something that doesn't even belong to them. And they're even starting to nag my mom to sell our car to them. Ughh. I'm trying as hard as I can to be strong and hold on. Each day, I have to face all these predicaments. What better life should I be in?
Honestly, I admit. I fake a smile everyday. I'm a very sensitive person. But people don't know that cause I've always been mean and sarcastic. I have main reasons for being insensitive. So that people won't see me as someone who can get hurt easily. Not only that, I'm doing it to protect my feelings. I know, we all have limits. I'm an odd person. *sighss.
My life isn't all that perfect. I would consider my life perfect when I've fulfilled all my purposes in life. Oh, God. I guess this is the karma I get for being such an ass back then. This is the perfect punishment for me. I'm so close to giving up.
Sayang, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I love you. And in this sort of situation, you'll always be the person I need to talk to, to dry my tears away, to convince me that everything's gonna be alright. I love you, I truly do. :'/
Monday, 3 November 2008
Stress kills
All of a sudden I lost my mood in blogging. I miss that particular someone who isn't talking to me right now. :'(
Will update soon. Goodnight.
Sunday, 2 November 2008
Exam Fever
Aahhh. I can't wait till its 4:21am. That's the exact time Ass proposed me when we first got together. It's our 11th Weeksary. :') Baby, Te Quiero Con Toda Mi Alma.
Oh well, I'm off. I have other things to update. Will update soon. Much much love. xoxo
Monday, 29 September 2008
Family Guy (Y)
Saturday, 27 September 2008
An Unusual Lonely Night
much much love
xoxo
Friday, 26 September 2008
My Long Time Interest
As you can see, you can do all sorts of awesome manouvers which is most likely to be fun. I hope I'll get the opportunity to do this daredevil activity, and also considered as an extreme stunt, someday. Although, there are some risks to it. There is a wide spectrum of possible injuries during a jump. One can be injured during a jump if the safety harness fails, the cord elasticity is miscalculated, or the cord is not properly connected to the jump platform. In most cases this is a result of human error in the form of mishandled harness preparation. Another major injury is if the jumper experiences cord entanglement with his/her own body. Other injuries include eye trauma, rope burn, uterine prolapse, dislocations, bruises, pinched fingers and back injury. Age, equipment, experience, location and weight are some of the factors, and nervousness can exacerbate eye traumas. So, obviously, any slight mistake or miscalculation will lead to a certain death if not careful. :)
Thursday, 25 September 2008
Side effects
And not to forget, here are the lyrics:
[Young Jeezy:]
It's M.C. and Y.J.
Another hit, OK
We lookin' fly, takin' off
Saw us on a runway
On any given Sunday,
Monday, Tuesday
They try to confuse me,
I never let 'em use me
I was a girl, you was a man
I was too young to understand
I was naןve, I just believed
Everything that you told me
Said you were strong, protecting me
Then I found out that you were weak
Keepin' me there, under your thumb
'cause you were scared that I'd become much
More than you could handle,
Shining like a chandelier
That decorated every room inside
The private hell we built,
And I dealt with it
Like a kid I wished I could fly away
But instead, I kept my tears inside
'cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying
For the rest of my life with you
I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects
[Chorus:]
Waking up scared some nights still dreaming 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still little defensive thinkin' 'bout me tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Vacant inside, no one was there
Couldn't be real, had to keep quiet
Once in awhile, put up a fight
It's just too much, night after night
After awhile I would just lie,
You was dead wrong, said you was right
Did what I could, just to survive
Couldn't believe this was my life,
Flickering like a candle
Doin’ my best to handle sleeping with the enemy
Aware that he was smothering every last part of me
So I broke away and finally found the strength to leave
Still kept the tears inside
'cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying
For the rest of my life with you
I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects
[Chorus:]
Waking up scared some nights still dreaming 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still little defensive thinkin' 'bout me tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Hey, hey, hey
Let's go!
[Young Jeezy:]
Hey magnifico or should I say magnificent?
Ain't nothing worth your happiness
And I ain't caring who you're with
Misery loves company so we ain't tryin' to hang with you all
Hurt you if you let 'em in
Gotta keep you sucker smilin'
Keep tryin' to play
I tell him I ain't blowin' though
Think they want me outta here,
I tell 'em I ain't goin' though
Side effects be drowsiness,
Loneliness,
How is this?
I think the call it hateration,
What can you prescribe for this?
Forgive but I can't forget,
Every day I deal with this
I live with the side effects
But I ain't gonna let them get the best of me
Forgive but I can't forget,
Every day I deal with this
I live with the side effects
But I ain't gonna let them get the best of me
Kept my tears inside
'cause I knew if I started I'd keep crying
For the rest of my life with you
I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects
[Chorus:]
Waking up scared some nights still dreaming 'bout them violent times
Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside
Still little defensive thinkin' 'bout me tryin' to run my life
Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Side effects (oh, oh)
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
Random topics to talk about in a conversation
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:01 AM):
zaaaaaat, aku cyg kau.
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:01 AM):
astagafirullahalazim
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:01 AM):
nani aku cyg kau
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:01 AM):
ehex
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:01 AM):
Subuh subuh sudah ia be'download.
zatsofatso. says (5:01 AM):
bah bah, i lorvvvves youz toohX cyngX
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
ia liat porn
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
batal puasa
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:02 AM):
ahhh, thank you for loving me.
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
apkan
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
hahaha
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:02 AM):
I love me too
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
aku baru jua uzur nich
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
sakit my hips
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:02 AM):
*hugs myself
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
hips dont lie
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:02 AM):
hahahh
zatsofatso. says (5:02 AM):
apakan
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
hahaha
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
apakan
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
ahahaha
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:02 AM):
aku inda sayang aku pasal susu ku damit
zatsofatso. says (5:03 AM):
taluuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:03 AM):
minum juice pagi pagi everyday
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:03 AM):
mau kan tu?
zatsofatso. says (5:04 AM):
eh that doesnt help
zatsofatso. says (5:04 AM):
picik saja susu mu atu pagi2
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
that does.
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:04 AM):
inda mau ah
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
hahhaha
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
kau picik awal ani kah?
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:04 AM):
hahahahaha
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
adakah
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
banar banay jua kau
NaniAZ iloveyou says (5:04 AM):
*banar banar
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:04 AM):
inda, susu ku gatal
zatsofatso. says (5:04 AM):
palui
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:04 AM):
haha
zatsofatso. says (5:04 AM):
hahaha
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:04 AM):
aku garu
Khairunnisa Nhdz. says (5:05 AM):
hahaha
Missing you
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
Random Problems that I have to face.
Thursday, 21 August 2008
Thursday, 14 August 2008
Qahss
She's simple, pretty, ordinary with something a little bit extra. She's someone who you'd definitely rely on. I love her to bits. She's like an unsolved riddle that no one is able to solve. People just tend to crack her up like a piggy bank so taht we can get the jackpot. (Y) I'm not saying she's one of those friends that brings me any benefits.I mean, being her friend is already the benefit. Get it?
heheh. I haven't actually known heer that long, but all I know is, that I love her like how much I love dancing in the rain. She has that special attraction that can make everyone want to get to know her. Obviously, she's very pretty. Inside and out. ;) She's one of my top people. When I have either troubles or problems, she's not going to help you with it but she will cheer you up and give some tips about how to solve it. She's very helpful, kind and reliable. She has the elements of being a perfect friend. When she's around, I get loco cause...I don't know...She always shines my day with her hilarious jokes and sarcasms. She never fails to shine my day. She's someone I can talk to 24/7. But then, sometimes I do get tired whenever she poops during our conversation in msn. It's so annoying. I mean, she can be a killjoy sometimes. That's why. Haha. I still love her though. (L) Like, very very much. She's actually my niece, but, I don't see her as a niece. She's like a best friend I never had. I love her like my very own sister. I don't have sisters so, having her around means a lot to me. (Y) She's the bestest part of my life. I love you so much, Qahsssssssss!(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)
Surprise Surprise
Saturday, 9 August 2008
One interesting Saturday.
As you all notice, I'm a new user. Obviously, I'm so friggin bored. I didn't attend to school this morning. I couldn't sleep and I'm having these severe headaches and I had gastric so yeah. Whatever. I could barely move. Even until now, I still can't sleep. Pfft. It's quite funny actually. I was tired in the morning but when I stayed at home, I was completely energetic! hahaha. I missed my biology test and my Maths test. Silly, huh? I chatted with Wani in a bit cause I was in a rush. So I told her not to go offline until I get back online. She agreed blablabla. That wraps up about everything that happened this morning. :)
This Afternoon till evening:
Mama picked me up from home and sent me to Gadong. I was freakish-ly bored at home. I just sat at Chill all by myself cause I needed some alone time. That's what I always do. If I'm not in the right mood, don't talk to me, don't look at me, don't touch me. What I'm trying to say is, just don't bother me at all. People can clearly state a huge difference between me in my good mood or bad mood. As I got online, Wani wasn't in the right mood tah jua. It sort of made ke a lot more kusut. So, we talked a lot about some certain things. UNTIL, she invited me for a webcam session. Hahahahaha. I was so segan, man! Seriously. I'll make a short description about Wani. She's my niece and she's the best. She can actually tell the difference whether I'm smirking reluctantly or smiling. HAHA. She cracks me up everytime we start a conversation. I love her very much and she's one of the people that makes living a lot more reasonable. :) So anyway, we chatted batah batah until we saw tiqah online. We invited her in our convo ua. Unfortunately, Tiqah was busy pooping as always. HAHA. (sorry,qahh. I love you! :P) But last last, ada jua ia bah. Hahahaha. We had a lot of fun chatting chatting. Sadly, Wani had to go off earlier than us. So tinggal me and Qahs saja. HAHA. She actually helped me a lot with this blog. She had to do three things at the same time. 1) She had to help me with this blog. 2) She had to jaga baby nya ahh. Cute! 3) I tahan rasa mengantuk nya. Esehhhhh! hahahahaha. Then while chatting and webcam-ing with her and all, Menda, Nu and Ruby appeared from out of nowhere. I decided to come along with them. So I told Qahh ,"BRB." But as I got back online semula, nicknya "Nani, aku tidur dulu" kah apakah. HAHAHA. Aku atu hoping she'd still be online tapi inda! oh well. I don't blame her. Andang it was her nap time jua sudah wah. Iatah. Oh well, right now I'm stuck in Westreet with Putat. Selalu ni ia ani di Gadong. Pfft. HAHAHA. I'm still thinking ni. Shoul I go out wit Hafes later? Yes? No? I'm so confused with boys. I don't normally feel this way but it's kind of driving me crazy. Someone called me a player, a heartbreaker, a bitch. Pfft.Hey, one date doesn't mean I'd instantly fall in love! Palui eh. I ust need time wah. Oh well, that's about that for today, I guess. My life isn't all that anteresting but, I hope we can all learn something from this.